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July 9, 2014

Hell it's been over a year since I made one of these. I guess I should post one to fill you guys in on what's going on. To be 100%, my depression is basically murdering me. It seems like everytime I just want someone to talk to. Nobodies around to listen. They all have their own problems. I have always put everyone else before me. Then I leave no time for myself. When I wanna take some time for myself... just to sit down and talk. Everybody else's problems are more important. None of my problems matter. I've been suffering since I was 9, only help I got? Therapy. Meds. How much good is that therapy going to do if I can't use the things I learned? How good are meds when the person that's supposed to be giving me them (I can't take my own meds for fear of overdosing.) Doesn't give them to me?

On July 17 last year. I took my first airplane flight out to New Jersey. Where I had planned to meet a close friend of mine. We ended up dating and still strong even now. Oddly enough... to me it seems like I provide all the emotional support. He provides the finacal.. It's not balanced as it use to be. I say we're going strong in a sense that we still talk to each other. Don't hate each other. Hell... I even see if we're together in a couple years getting married. Hoping on the sure fact maybe if we lived closer to each other, our romance would spark again.

I often wonder now a days... Will I ever get my turn for someone to care about me? Is it going to ever be my turn to be safe? Is it going to be my turn to be cared for, taken care of, and have an importance.

I can't get a job. My high school dropped me, not once but three times. Every effort I've made to get my GED, forced off because of someone else's problems. I'm never going to really ammount to anything am I?
  • Mood: Alienated

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RileyCasper
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
Stupidity is a talent for misconception. ~ Edgar Allan Poe

You can find me several places
Tumblr rileycasper.tumblr.com/
Twitch www.twitch.tv/rileycasper
Horse Phenomena horsephenomena.com/home.php?id…
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July 9, 2014

Hell it's been over a year since I made one of these. I guess I should post one to fill you guys in on what's going on. To be 100%, my depression is basically murdering me. It seems like everytime I just want someone to talk to. Nobodies around to listen. They all have their own problems. I have always put everyone else before me. Then I leave no time for myself. When I wanna take some time for myself... just to sit down and talk. Everybody else's problems are more important. None of my problems matter. I've been suffering since I was 9, only help I got? Therapy. Meds. How much good is that therapy going to do if I can't use the things I learned? How good are meds when the person that's supposed to be giving me them (I can't take my own meds for fear of overdosing.) Doesn't give them to me?

On July 17 last year. I took my first airplane flight out to New Jersey. Where I had planned to meet a close friend of mine. We ended up dating and still strong even now. Oddly enough... to me it seems like I provide all the emotional support. He provides the finacal.. It's not balanced as it use to be. I say we're going strong in a sense that we still talk to each other. Don't hate each other. Hell... I even see if we're together in a couple years getting married. Hoping on the sure fact maybe if we lived closer to each other, our romance would spark again.

I often wonder now a days... Will I ever get my turn for someone to care about me? Is it going to ever be my turn to be safe? Is it going to be my turn to be cared for, taken care of, and have an importance.

I can't get a job. My high school dropped me, not once but three times. Every effort I've made to get my GED, forced off because of someone else's problems. I'm never going to really ammount to anything am I?
  • Mood: Alienated

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Aren-Elsa Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for both the watch AND the Queen Elsa gif signature; you're awesome!! :tighthug:
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HorseStockPhotos Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2014
thanks for watching!!!
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Snowflake-the-Cat Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for the favorite.
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Charmadige Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014   General Artist
:iconswirlylollipopplz::iconthxfav2::iconthxfav3::iconthxfav4: .. Multi-:iconkirbyfaveplz:
Wish you a wonderful 2014 !! :iconflowerheartplz::huggle:
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inkpadalan Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for fav...
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Unwritten-Lyrics Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Umm...you kinda look like a buttmunch in your picture
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RileyCasper Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You look like a cunt. <3 Thank you have a nice day. <3
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Unwritten-Lyrics Featured By Owner May 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
More like you look like the cunt.Well, in your case, an ugly, FAT cunt! Have a nice day. <3
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adrrar Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2013   Photographer
Hello! :wave:

Nice to meet you! :D
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RileyCasper Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello! <3 thanks for the watch <3
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Aurelia-Isabella Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for watching :heart:
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kalmanen Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013
Thanks for the watch :)
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Gamekiller48 Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Hobbyist Filmographer
Thanks for the :iconfav3dplz:
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paulauskas Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012
Watching here :painter:
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RileyCasper Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch <3
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mysticmorning Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012
Thank you very much for the Watch hon :heart:
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EmmyKelly Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the favorites!
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joshi-stock Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave :)
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littlesu Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:love: rileyyyyyyyy
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RileyCasper Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
SUZIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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littlesu Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:D
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Bobbledor Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012
Thank you for the fave! :D
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Tacome Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
TY for the fav Tally is happy
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Bnspyrd Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2012  Professional General Artist
Thank you for the visit, your support is very much appreciated. :heart:
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the-true-meK Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thankies for the fav :meow:
~ leaves :cookie: and :hug:
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